Wallow (Contempt)
Born again manwhore but at what cost,
I wanna hit the button shut the door and breath the exhaust,
Increase my decline in my seat ponder the life I lost,
I see the light feel the heat but my skin is like frost,
Flash back to when I used to be real unfaithful,
Life was great no conscience and I escaped every label,
Mind expanded at a young age but that met with depression
Every day was like a break up then began my regression,
How do you defeat subconscious that's stronger than your conscious,
The slightest mistake and my morals went unconscious,
How do you gain control when you mirror the uncontrollable,
Go ahead and talk but this kid is inconsolable,
I never even deserved your love don't you understand,
You fly through the sky while I'm buried in the sand,
You're life has benchmarks so big that need steel cables,
I'm so insignificant that I don't even need a staple,
But what the fuck am I supposed to do they expect me to just give in,
My throats already slit but I'm trached with this pen,
Many people say ya gotta look to a friend,
But fuck that never gonna happen that's not who I am,
I was raised by two people who never even spoke to each other,
And would be at each other's throats if one of em even woke the other,
Somewhere there's a psychological reason of why I sleep under the covers,
It probably just dampened the shouts of my father and mother,
Of course I'm gonna fight that's all I knew when I was young,
Maybe not fisticuffs and definitely without a gun,
But definitely mentally my home is where my hat is hung,
Whether on a park bench or in a bar where these songs are sung,
I'm terrified that one day my head will convince me otherwise,
And I'll stand up on that chair with a noose made of my old ties,
And a voice will say...kick it out,

I've survived the wrath of god now I'm just waiting for satans worst,
I've awoken at the gates of hell and I'm filled with a plague-like thirst,
My heart's got fuckin pressure cracks maybe soon it'll burst,
You awoke this beast in me but don't think you're the first, (x2)

No wrath of God is survived and satans worst anticipated
Awoken at the gates of hell and even there im desecrated,
I was created debated dictated sedated and dilated,
Vacated humanity for to them im unrelated,
Skated by the wrath of God and no worse is anticipated
Awaited at the gates of hell for that is where I'm slated,
Where Demons imps and impostors by myself are dictated,
Two beings mated here and that is how I was created